Peppermint Mochas and Faking Sanity

This is the third time I’ve ended up at this coffee shop this week. I mean, it’s always been a comforting place, but now I seek it out just for a touch of normalcy. It’s a place untouched by anything bad (except for the guy that has been texting me and telling me about how…

Jump

I remember being in support group last semester and we had a discussion about how difficult it is to get into new relationships since we’ve all had our trust violated in a way most people haven’t.  Another girl and I were about to enter new relationships and we weren’t sure we could do it.  We…

Heartbreak Pt. II

I can’t help but feel like I deserved it. And maybe that’s what’s crushing me more than anything. I also can’t even say that I didn’t see it coming. Because I did. I was just hoping I was being my insecure, pathetic self. But for once my anxiety was predicting something correctly. I was hoping…

Intimacy

No, I’m not just talking about sex. Well, yes of course I’m talking a little bit about sex. I just hate how complicated intimacy has to be, especially now. All I do is strive for intimacy, like just being held or having a moment of complete understanding… At the same time, I’m terrified of it.…

Connection

I just wanted to thank K for her post. It was everything I ever needed, although it’s not everything I wanted. You want to believe that things will get better and that you can fight this all on my own. This week I’ve realized that I need connection more than anything if I ever plan…

Things To Know

Here’s a list of things I’ve learned in the past two years. After reading C’s post, I thought it might be useful for us both.  The feeling of dread and pain whenever you see him will not go away. It begins to numb, but it becomes something you get used to. That goes for far…

An Encounter

Unfortunately a day after I posted about worrying that I’d run into my rapist, I ran into my rapist. Just my luck, right? He isn’t allowed in my residence hall, but I was eating dinner with some of my friends in a nearby dining hall. I got up to go get some ice cream to…